Joyful Transition

The Last time I blogged it was after Christmas eve mass. Earlier that day I sat in front of the Blessed Sacrament to pray for a dear student named Suzy Beazley. I knew Suzy was ill and in the hospital over Christmas break. No one wants to spend Christmas in a Hospital. I was concerned for her health and later found out Suzy was diagnosed with a very aggressive cancer. This past week we were praying for a miracle. Suzy was fighting for her life and we really hoped God would let us keep her. However, today I sat in front of the Blessed Sacrament again praying for her healing on earth or joyful transition into God's kingdom. God chose the latter. This has been hard because I knew Suzy. I admired her spirit and her constant fearlessness. She was a dancer and had truly grown in the past year and a half in high school. I really do feel blessed to know her.

I look at this a couple ways... I can live my life in a period of waiting... waiting for the day when I will meet all my departed brothers and sisters or I can live each day spreading Gods news so more people may enter Heaven and I can sorta guarantee a spot. (I hope) Life seems like a long time... but it's not. In a blink of an eye things can change. I do look forward to God's Kingdom and being with Jesus. I am trying to become comfortable in my human limitation. Rest in the fact that I don't know why everything happens and that's how it's supposed to be. I'll let God Shepherd his flock and remind myself I'm merely a sheep. I can only do so much.

Today, the heavens gained a bright, dynamic, funny, compassionate, and beautiful creation. Suzy may you watch over all of us. May your presence live inside of us and may we meet again in the freedom of God's Kingdom. Much love Suz. Keep DANCIN!

Below is the poem I wrote on God's Word while suzy was making her joyful transition.

Lord your words are workin and

They are never broken for

Every time their spoken your

Life is unfolding more

So the prayers that I hold

I will now let go

Give them to your special

Heart and just let your

Graces befall

In your word I recall

What we ask in your will

Will now be ours

You are bright like stars

And your light shines on

So any place of darkness

In me is now gone

Because you are beyond

If you ask I respond

With fa sho & I got you

You lead and I’ll follow

Your words are not hollow

They connect to me I know

Every time I reflect on your story

I’m reminded you are not done yet

And your Glory is comin

But these days are becoming like

Tough So I’m runin right

Home to your son in my soul

for the moment

until I get strength to keep on goin

- JM